Last thursday, I have felt SOOOooo down in the dumps... thinking about how routine my job is, thinking about this guy who has been really messing with my mind... thinking about the upcoming 10 year-high school reunion we're gonna have... thinking about how my life has changed in the past 10 years.... the stress, the problems... etc.. etc....
I text messaged my best friend about all this and she replied with a high positive energy thursday night. So.... i thought to myself... you know what, she's right. I create my own problems, i have to look at the greener side of the fence. I have great friends whom I recently went on a weekend getaway with last week, at least I have a job, I have my health, I'm surrounded by great food and great people.
So, thursday night, I slept thinking that I should wake up with a better outlook on life. Lo and behold, Friday morning, no matter how stressed out I was about this guy and no matter how I had to drag my feet to get to work.... I had on a smile on my face and happy thoughts in my head.
I had a great Friday.
Saturday.... I still had positivity... I had a great day with my sister, too.
Sunday... I'm still thinking positive and I still have a smile on my face. Putting a smile makes me feel like I've lifted a ton off my shoulders!
POSITIVITY!!! I LOVE it!!!
To hell with stress! To hell with denials and untruthfulness!! I'm thinking about ME! It's ME time! ^_^
To my girls whom I went on a weekend getaway with, I luv ya! Thanks for easing my stress away with our super hot nature walk around the park that seems to have been forgotten by the government. Thanks for the late-night talks and making me realize my mistakes.
Here's what i learned:
A mini-vacation (or not so mini) is NOT about WHERE you go... it's about WHO you're going with. ^_^ and my girls are the best ones to go on a mini trip with!
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
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Sunday, October 17, 2010
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Stress Much?
How do you guys deal with stress?
I'm stressing out about a lot of things in my life--work life and personal life combined. See, the thing is, one aspect interferes with the other (and vice versa). It's a vicious cycle that never seems to end.
My friends tell me that to get rid of stress, you have to get rid of the root cause of it. Hmm... in my case, it's hard to pinpoint exactly which is the root--work or personal life?
Stress from work is normal and I think I can handle that more than the stress in my personal life (which includes family, love (or the lack of it), friends, etc.. etc..) With work, I deal with stress by laughing at things. If I make a mistake or if there's a student who gives me a headache with all his/her never ending questions, I just smile and explain again...and again...and again....
As for the personal life... everything is in shambles... I'm confused, I'm troubled, my mind is spinning in a vortex of worries, high hopes and shattered dreams... I need to try to make it stop. I find absolutely no laughter in my personal life. I need to find myself, but outside forces pull me back thinking that i'm more "sheltered" if they don't let go of me. I'm gonna go berserk! I want to saw off that short leash they tied around my life!
If I were a bird, my wings would either be clipped by now or stunted its growth to a full wing span.
So, I ask you again, how do you deal with stress?
I'm stressing out about a lot of things in my life--work life and personal life combined. See, the thing is, one aspect interferes with the other (and vice versa). It's a vicious cycle that never seems to end.
My friends tell me that to get rid of stress, you have to get rid of the root cause of it. Hmm... in my case, it's hard to pinpoint exactly which is the root--work or personal life?
Stress from work is normal and I think I can handle that more than the stress in my personal life (which includes family, love (or the lack of it), friends, etc.. etc..) With work, I deal with stress by laughing at things. If I make a mistake or if there's a student who gives me a headache with all his/her never ending questions, I just smile and explain again...and again...and again....
As for the personal life... everything is in shambles... I'm confused, I'm troubled, my mind is spinning in a vortex of worries, high hopes and shattered dreams... I need to try to make it stop. I find absolutely no laughter in my personal life. I need to find myself, but outside forces pull me back thinking that i'm more "sheltered" if they don't let go of me. I'm gonna go berserk! I want to saw off that short leash they tied around my life!
If I were a bird, my wings would either be clipped by now or stunted its growth to a full wing span.
So, I ask you again, how do you deal with stress?
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Life as a Wheel
Life is like a wheel...
Sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down
At times you feel like your going around in circles
Doing the same old routine every single day
Life can also get wear and tear
A scratch and some dirt
A few bumps on the road
Maybe even a nail.
We get punctured, then sealed
And we're good to go again.
Life's like that...
Mine has absolutely nothing exciting going on.
I'm a wheel stuck in the mud
While all the other wheels are passing me by...
Stuck and alone with no one to push me
Maybe, just maybe, given the right push
And the right set of mind,
I can go again.
But I'm too deep in the mud
Feeling too down to move
I'm starting to give up hope
Maybe I'll be stuck here forever...
Sometimes you're up, sometimes you're down
At times you feel like your going around in circles
Doing the same old routine every single day
Life can also get wear and tear
A scratch and some dirt
A few bumps on the road
Maybe even a nail.
We get punctured, then sealed
And we're good to go again.
Life's like that...
Mine has absolutely nothing exciting going on.
I'm a wheel stuck in the mud
While all the other wheels are passing me by...
Stuck and alone with no one to push me
Maybe, just maybe, given the right push
And the right set of mind,
I can go again.
But I'm too deep in the mud
Feeling too down to move
I'm starting to give up hope
Maybe I'll be stuck here forever...
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
When the frown turns upside down...
I'm happy to share that I am feeling much better now. I still think about him, but that's normal..part of the process..a stage..
He, meanwhile, has completely vanished into thin air from my life... What can I do? Nothing, of course. I am not one to mess with fate--if it's not meant to be, then so be it.
I have found healing in the most unusual place: work and kids.
As an ESL teacher, it's not hard to be amused by young innocent kids who usually make mistakes using their newly acquired English words. Take for example my 12-year-old boy student who recently learned the words: garage, hangar, and depot, to name a few.
Last week, the students had their vocabulary test wherein they had to use their words in grammatically correct sentences. When the test papers were returned to us, the teachers, I couldn't help but giggle when I saw what my student wrote:
"My mother HANGAR my t-shirt."
Good job, my student... good job for making me laugh lifting my downtrodden spirit. ^_^
Also, my 10-year-old girls surprisingly became really close to me. Playfully joking around with me, playing catch with me, telling me stories and even hugging me after the day is over!
Curiouser and curiouser....
Life seriously never fails to mystify me...
He, meanwhile, has completely vanished into thin air from my life... What can I do? Nothing, of course. I am not one to mess with fate--if it's not meant to be, then so be it.
I have found healing in the most unusual place: work and kids.
As an ESL teacher, it's not hard to be amused by young innocent kids who usually make mistakes using their newly acquired English words. Take for example my 12-year-old boy student who recently learned the words: garage, hangar, and depot, to name a few.
Last week, the students had their vocabulary test wherein they had to use their words in grammatically correct sentences. When the test papers were returned to us, the teachers, I couldn't help but giggle when I saw what my student wrote:
"My mother HANGAR my t-shirt."
Good job, my student... good job for making me laugh lifting my downtrodden spirit. ^_^
Also, my 10-year-old girls surprisingly became really close to me. Playfully joking around with me, playing catch with me, telling me stories and even hugging me after the day is over!
Curiouser and curiouser....
Life seriously never fails to mystify me...
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Life: A Written Essay
I saw this quote on Bob Ong's Twitter page. Bob Ong is a Filipino author who is witty and sensible.
"hindi pala exam na may passing rate ang buhay. Hindi ito multiple choice, identification... kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw." - Bob Ong
Translation: Life is not an exam with a passing rate. It's not a multiple choice exam or identification exam... instead, it is an essay that is written everyday."
This is SO true. Life IS an essay exam that is written everyday. We write our lives, make mistakes, revise it, and continue to write it. We don't know what our conclusion will be... yet. However, all of us are the writers of our lives. Some intertwined, like two stories meshed together in one. Sometimes we don't know it, but we have the same story as another person.
We, as the writers of our lives, try to make it as colorful, lively and interesting as much as we can. Moreover, like a good essay... we want to share our stories to other people, and they in turn, love to listen to our lives--no matter how full of bursts of laughter or sadness, they are all colorful lives.
I am still feeling a little bit miserable about everything that's going on (well.. NOT going on) in my life. However, I try to pull myself out of this depression pit by reflecting on life.
Yes, I do believe I'm feeling existential right now.... Think about your life, too. Isn't it a story waiting to be told..shared? I guess that's why we have blogs, huh? ^_^ I'm currently trying to write a short story based on a tiny part of my life.... and this involves a certain guy! hmmm?? ^_^
Bob Ong... if, by chance, you're reading this.... that one quote of yours definitely made me reflect on what I'm writing in (or for) my life these days. Bakit ba kasi napaka hirap ng buhay at mag hanap buhay dito sa atin? At bakit ba napakahirap ng public transportation natin? Ang labo!
Dare I translate what i said? Ok.... I just said, "Why is life and work so hard in our country? And why is our public transportation so difficult? It's weird." <--That's what I said.
Yes, I am a Filipina... Damn proud to be one, too. What with all the corruption and pollution we have here, Filipinos still find a way to smile and laugh at everything that's going on. It's almost our Independence Day, the day we celebrate our independence from the Spanish regime (which by the way greatly influenced us).
Life.... is a mystery
Life.... is a challenge
Life.... is complicated
Life.... is fun when lived to the fullest.
So, let's all write and live our life essays to the fullest~!!
Thanks to all my bloggy friends for all the support you give me, especially during my down moments.
"hindi pala exam na may passing rate ang buhay. Hindi ito multiple choice, identification... kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw." - Bob Ong
Translation: Life is not an exam with a passing rate. It's not a multiple choice exam or identification exam... instead, it is an essay that is written everyday."
This is SO true. Life IS an essay exam that is written everyday. We write our lives, make mistakes, revise it, and continue to write it. We don't know what our conclusion will be... yet. However, all of us are the writers of our lives. Some intertwined, like two stories meshed together in one. Sometimes we don't know it, but we have the same story as another person.
We, as the writers of our lives, try to make it as colorful, lively and interesting as much as we can. Moreover, like a good essay... we want to share our stories to other people, and they in turn, love to listen to our lives--no matter how full of bursts of laughter or sadness, they are all colorful lives.
I am still feeling a little bit miserable about everything that's going on (well.. NOT going on) in my life. However, I try to pull myself out of this depression pit by reflecting on life.
Yes, I do believe I'm feeling existential right now.... Think about your life, too. Isn't it a story waiting to be told..shared? I guess that's why we have blogs, huh? ^_^ I'm currently trying to write a short story based on a tiny part of my life.... and this involves a certain guy! hmmm?? ^_^
Bob Ong... if, by chance, you're reading this.... that one quote of yours definitely made me reflect on what I'm writing in (or for) my life these days. Bakit ba kasi napaka hirap ng buhay at mag hanap buhay dito sa atin? At bakit ba napakahirap ng public transportation natin? Ang labo!
Dare I translate what i said? Ok.... I just said, "Why is life and work so hard in our country? And why is our public transportation so difficult? It's weird." <--That's what I said.
Yes, I am a Filipina... Damn proud to be one, too. What with all the corruption and pollution we have here, Filipinos still find a way to smile and laugh at everything that's going on. It's almost our Independence Day, the day we celebrate our independence from the Spanish regime (which by the way greatly influenced us).
Life.... is a mystery
Life.... is a challenge
Life.... is complicated
Life.... is fun when lived to the fullest.
So, let's all write and live our life essays to the fullest~!!
Thanks to all my bloggy friends for all the support you give me, especially during my down moments.
MUCH LOVE!
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