Going Crazy In Love

What can I do?
I've fallen for someone
Who couldn't possibly be for me.
He's there; I'm here so we can't be as one.

We're of different worlds
With different minds
And of different hearts.

But I can't help but fall
For his charms (at times)
For his smile
For his unexpected hugs and kisses

There's something about him
I couldn't quite grasp
I don't know anything about him
But I just couldn't keep my hands off him.

I get jealous when he looks at others
I get jealous when he talks about other girls
I get jealous when he wears that shirt

I don't know a single thing that runs in his brain
Yet I can't help it; I've fallen for someone
Who can't possibly be for me

...Simply because he doesn't want  me to be his...

If I Could..... I Would...

Found this writing prompt on one of the "learn English" sites I stumbled upon while trying to look for activities for my students.. So, I thought I'd give it a whirl. Try it, you might just be surprised at what comes up on your list!

1. If I could afford to rent my own apartment already, I would have a freakin' party every night.

2. If I could afford to buy my own car, I would go out and finally attend friends' birthday parties and get-togethers and reunions and stuff like that...

3. If I could go to Italy, I'd PROBABLY marry an Italian man.

4. If I could have my own way, I'd be happy.

5. If I could fly, I'd go to Italy to see the sights

6. If I could get my dream job, I'd be a video (or even better--film) editor.

7. If I could turn back time, I'd go back a few years ago when I WAS a video editor.

8.  If I could go out at nights (presently), I'd probably still have my PR writing job til now.

9. If I could tell someone how I feel, I'd hurt his feelings.

10.  If I could just get out now, I'd scream cos this someone is annoying me now through text while I'm writing this post! grr..

**In summary: If I could just get my own way, I'd finally feel independent, I'd have my own place (and car, hopefully), and I'd be able to be with my friends!.

BUT life is unfair... life let me taste a little freedom for four long years while I was at the university far far away from home, but now that I'm back home, the umbilical cord seemed to magically tie itself back again.

CURSES!

Stress Much?

How do you guys deal with stress?

I'm stressing out about a lot of things in my life--work life and personal life combined. See, the thing is, one aspect interferes with the other (and vice versa). It's a vicious cycle that never seems to end.

My friends tell me that to get rid of stress, you have to get rid of the root cause of it. Hmm... in my case, it's hard to pinpoint exactly which is the root--work or personal life?

Stress from work is normal and I think I can handle that more than the stress in my personal life (which includes family, love (or the lack of it), friends, etc.. etc..) With work, I deal with stress by laughing at things. If I make a mistake or if there's a student who gives me a headache with all his/her never ending questions, I just smile and explain again...and again...and again....

As for the personal life... everything is in shambles... I'm confused, I'm troubled, my mind is spinning in a vortex of worries, high hopes and shattered dreams... I need to try to make it stop. I find absolutely no laughter in my personal life. I need to find myself, but outside forces pull me back thinking that i'm more "sheltered" if they don't let go of me. I'm gonna go berserk! I want to saw off that short leash they tied around my life!

If I were a bird, my wings would either be clipped by now or stunted its growth to a full wing span.

So, I ask you again, how do you deal with stress?

Crochet Mania

I haven't been visiting my blog for quite some time now... not because i have been depressed... i'm SO over what happened.

Recently, I have found another creative outlet. CROCHET! Here's a photo of what I've made so far. I've been creating crocheted bracelets with beads.

These babies are so easy to make~ thanks to FutureGirl~!!

I started making this as therapy to my boredom and it ended up a craze for my female students. They absolutely went gaga over it. So, I gave it to them as presents. They're so easy to make and they make great gifts or giveaways.

I love it!

Next crochet adventure: Beaded Purses... hmmm??? ^_^ OR crocheted earrings! aahhH~ the opportunities and creative possibilities are endless!!!