For every up, there's a down.
For every smile, there's a tear.
For every right, there's a wrong.
For every success, there's a failure.
For every life, there's death.
(D, 09-03-11)
I'd like to believe in the balance of life. For all things, there is an equal and opposite force acting upon it. Kinda reminds you of Newton's Law, eh? But it's true.
Take for example, my experience with McDonald's delivery a few hours ago. Two hours has passed since I made the online delivery order, and still no knock on my door from the McDelivery guy. After 30 more minutes of starvation, I heard the knock. I complained, and made a sad face that I have been waiting for too long to eat. The McDelivery guy went on and on about his side of the story. It wasn't his fault. It was some other MrDelivery guy's fault claiming that he 'lost' the receipt.
So, the McDelivery guy that was standing in front of my doorstep said that he will talk to their manager for me and come back with whatever result. An hour later, I heard another knock at the door. It was the McDelivery guy with a free Cheeseburger! He apologized so many times on behalf of McDonald's and left me with a smile.
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That's on the ligther side of things. On a heavier note, the real negativity in me now is weighing me down like a ton of rocks weighing a suicidal person down the depths of the sea. I have uncearthed a lot of things that has opened my eyes to what seems to be the reality of the situation I'm in. The denials, the pain, the lies and the tears. All weigh me down to the abyss of depression and heartache... yet again.
To deny me is to hurt me.
To deny me is to break my heart into a tiny million shards of glass
To deny me is to turn your back on me
To deny me is to pretend that I don't exist
Because when you deny me, you are closing the door on me and opening a window to let the others' ray of light shine on you instead.
To deny me is to deprive me of smiles.
To deny me is to shatter my ego.
To deny me is to step on my confidence.
To deny me is to pretend that I don't exist.
Because when you deny me, it means that you want others' to give you happiness that I cannot provide myself.
To deny me is to pierce my soul.
To deny me is to sink me into madness.
To deny me is to let my tears flow endlessly.
To deny me is to pretent I don't exist.
Because when you deny me, you hurt me and break my heart that I have tried so many times to patch up with duct tape. You have yet again pushed me into the darkness that I have tried so many times to get out off.
I hope to see the light shine again, even though it is tainted with lies and deceit. I hope to see the rainbow though the colors are dull and monochromatic. I hope to see the sun though it shines gray. Just let me out of this darkness called DOUBT.
