Recently, I had a flashback of memories from my university days. It made me wonder about the friends I've made, the people I've met and talked to, and the boys (of course) that captured my eyes and my heart. Where are they now?
I went to a university halfway around the globe from my country a few years back. I've met A LOT of interesting people, most of them became my friends while I was there. However, as the yearS passed by, and I went back to my part of the globe, I can't help but think about them, especially since I've lost touch with most of them.
True, there's facebook, and I've reconnected with my best friend who now lives a Pacific Ocean across me and even with my ex-boyfriend... the guy I dated... and the guy I had a crush on, but some of the wonderful people I met aren't even there! Here's a snippet of my momentary flashback:
- I had this professor who was about 32 years old when I was around 21. I admit, I had a HUGE crush on him and got all A's in his class. Funny thing was, I always asked him questions about the lesson even though I understood it completely. I even asked him if he wanted to watch a concert with me! haha! I was shot down, but that didn't stop me from admiring him and his greenish/grayish eyes, his trimmed and well-taken cared of goatie that he always played with and his tall, handsome physique! I wonder what he's doing these days?
- I met this guy in one of my english classes. He told me he was a Marine. We really hit it off and became friends. We studied together... well, not studied seriously... ok, we talked a lot in the library until we got scolded for it by the librarian. We took pictures together and he even helped me with a project of mine for a different class. He's a really good guy, cute, too! After one semester, I didn't see him around school anymore. Sad thing now is, I can't remember his name!! :( I still have our photo together (He's SO handsome!) ^_^. I want to reconnect with him, I just don't know how/where to begin. What with me being a forgetful person with names!
- There was this girl I met who was really kind to me on my first few weeks of my university days. She showed me around and always invited me to eat lunch with her, which i graciously accepted. We were great friends for one semester. I wonder how she is now? Again, I can't remember her name. :( What a friend I am!!
There's a lot more, but I won't bore you, my reader(s), with them. I just wanted to share these thoughts and memories with you because, I'm pretty sure you've met great people in your lives that you couldn't forget. Even if you were just with them for a short period of time, they made an impact that could last for years to come. We may forget their names, but their faces and the memories we shared with them will never fade away.
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Monday, December 28, 2009
Our Mental Video Camera
This is something I wrote in Oct 27 ‘09.. I've added more to it as I share it with you through this blog...
Time and memory could easily play tricks on our minds. What seems to have happened yesterday in our minds could have had happened 10 years ago in reality. Our memories are strong and powerful, especially the cherished ones. If you really think about it, the events that happened more than 10 years ago are still fresh in your mind. Our most-cherished memories will never fade away.
My mind is filled with memories of 5-10 years ago. Once in a while they pop out of my head and an instant replay is played inside my mind. These are the few times when I suddenly go physically blank as I silently watch the deluge of images play inside my head. Somewhere between five to ten years ago, my mind had mentally captured—like a video camera on auto record—scenes from events and happenings shared with friends and loved ones. Now, my mind seems to be on auto-play as well. I often catch myself watching my mental video camera as it plays scenes from high school dances and events like it happened yesterday. Sometimes, however, it plays scenes from my days in San Francisco. Honestly, my mental video camera often catches me off-guard. I don’t know why, but most of the time, it plays even while I sleep and I watch it through my dreams.
I think one reason our brain auto-records such events is because our brain knows that we want to cherish the good memories for the rest of our lives. Like our very own video camera without having to lug around the extra equipment needed—lights, tripods, mics, etc—our brain automatically captures the highlights of our lives. However, unlike video tapes or dvds, our mental storage box never fades away, never gets scratched and the film never gets stuck to the cartridge. Most importantly, we don’t need a television set or a player to watch it.
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I have actually caught myself staring blankly into space as I watch random memories from the past auto-play in my mind. Most of the time, I am able to select chapters of my life and usually I try replay the good stuff over and over. It's a good thing I cannot scratch it like a mere dvd!
Come to think of it, my mental playback of the past comes with a certain feeling long-forgotten by time. When I have an auto-playback of some parts of my life, I can feel the happiness, the laughter, the pain and the tears again--like reliving them one more time.
It's a good thing that, most of the time at least, my mental video camera plays back the good stuff. That first kiss with that special guy... that date at the restaurant with a really great view of the city... the way I suddenly said "HI!" to my now best girl friend... the times lounging around downtown on a lazy day... getting together with college friends and forgetting we all had financial problems... the hustle and bustle of working in a television station... getting yelled at on the very first hours of production by a director who hugged me tightly on my last day at the set and begged me not to go... graduation... first day at "real" work (ie: 9am to 5pm)... all the good stuff... just the good stuff.
This is our very special Mental Video Camera. Unique, different to each person. Special. Something we should all cherish and be careful not to delete anything! Each memory (good or bad) is something special in our lives... a lesson, perhaps? or simply a reminder of who we really are.
Time and memory could easily play tricks on our minds. What seems to have happened yesterday in our minds could have had happened 10 years ago in reality. Our memories are strong and powerful, especially the cherished ones. If you really think about it, the events that happened more than 10 years ago are still fresh in your mind. Our most-cherished memories will never fade away.
My mind is filled with memories of 5-10 years ago. Once in a while they pop out of my head and an instant replay is played inside my mind. These are the few times when I suddenly go physically blank as I silently watch the deluge of images play inside my head. Somewhere between five to ten years ago, my mind had mentally captured—like a video camera on auto record—scenes from events and happenings shared with friends and loved ones. Now, my mind seems to be on auto-play as well. I often catch myself watching my mental video camera as it plays scenes from high school dances and events like it happened yesterday. Sometimes, however, it plays scenes from my days in San Francisco. Honestly, my mental video camera often catches me off-guard. I don’t know why, but most of the time, it plays even while I sleep and I watch it through my dreams.
I think one reason our brain auto-records such events is because our brain knows that we want to cherish the good memories for the rest of our lives. Like our very own video camera without having to lug around the extra equipment needed—lights, tripods, mics, etc—our brain automatically captures the highlights of our lives. However, unlike video tapes or dvds, our mental storage box never fades away, never gets scratched and the film never gets stuck to the cartridge. Most importantly, we don’t need a television set or a player to watch it.
***
I have actually caught myself staring blankly into space as I watch random memories from the past auto-play in my mind. Most of the time, I am able to select chapters of my life and usually I try replay the good stuff over and over. It's a good thing I cannot scratch it like a mere dvd!
Come to think of it, my mental playback of the past comes with a certain feeling long-forgotten by time. When I have an auto-playback of some parts of my life, I can feel the happiness, the laughter, the pain and the tears again--like reliving them one more time.
It's a good thing that, most of the time at least, my mental video camera plays back the good stuff. That first kiss with that special guy... that date at the restaurant with a really great view of the city... the way I suddenly said "HI!" to my now best girl friend... the times lounging around downtown on a lazy day... getting together with college friends and forgetting we all had financial problems... the hustle and bustle of working in a television station... getting yelled at on the very first hours of production by a director who hugged me tightly on my last day at the set and begged me not to go... graduation... first day at "real" work (ie: 9am to 5pm)... all the good stuff... just the good stuff.
This is our very special Mental Video Camera. Unique, different to each person. Special. Something we should all cherish and be careful not to delete anything! Each memory (good or bad) is something special in our lives... a lesson, perhaps? or simply a reminder of who we really are.
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