When On A Roller Coaster Ride of Life....

Life has a funny way of toying with us. Do you think that we control our lives? Or our lives control us? I have no idea, actually. What I do know is this: Life can sometimes be bittersweet...

I've been teaching English to Koreans again after my very short stint as a writer.  I always remember the old adage, "When life throws lemons at you, make yourself a lemonade".

How true! This current job of mine is a serious lemon in my life, however, my students--especially the funny and kind ones--make me glasses of lemonade each day.  One of my students cannot pronounce "bored" correctly.  One day, he complained to me.. "Teacher! I'm BOH-RED!" ^_^This 18-year old young man has a playful mind of a 6-year old (same energy, too!)

One of my younger students always tell me make-believe stories during class time. One day, he told me a story about him climbing up Mt. Everest in 2 seconds! Faster than Superman, who did it in 4 seconds, who, by the way, is also his older brother! His younger brother is Iron Man! ^_^ He's a cute, chubby 12-year old who calls me a "witch" or "skeleton" as a joke and I call him a " silly jester" (two of his new vocab words for this week) ^_^

Little things like these can put a smile on my face. As long as the students are pleasant.

In another part of my life.... I've been "seeing" this guy for more than a month now.  He's really nice and we've been friends since we were 13 years old. He was even my prom date when we were 16.  Years passed and we both went separate ways after high school.  After 11 years, we're back to hanging out with each other again--coffee, dinner, ice cream, or simply just talking about the ups and downs of life. The ultimate lemon, which is also the most sour, in my life: He has a girlfriend!

I know we can't have everything we want in life. I try to be a good girl so good things will happen to me. But try as I might, my ideal setting...my ideal world...my ideal life... will just remain that: IDEAL.

So, here's what I will incoherently ramble on: Dreamers dream... Players play... cycle of life! Ups and downs... bittersweet... lemons = a big pitcher of lemonade!

*sigh* as you can see... everything that's happening to me recently has taken a toll on my coherence. So, I'll end this post here, before i ramble you to boredom. ^_^

remember: "When life throws lemons at you, make yourself a lemonade!" YUM! ^_^

Is this what they call "Quarter-Life Crisis"??

All these emotions! I can't keep up with it!

As I've shared before, I'm now back to teaching english to koreans... and I am so NOT driven! I've been thinking that maybe this isn't my passion... this isn't what i'm supposed to do...

Five years ago, I used to work at a television station as an intern, then progressed to being a production assistant... then went up doing video editing and various production jobs. I even got a job as a wedding video editor and I loved it! ....I miss it. See, here's the thing... I used to work in California... now, I'm back in my home country and the television stations here are MILES away from where I live...and i don't have a car... and it's a nightmare taking public transportation here. seriously!


How i wish i could find my dream job in production again... it was so much easier to find work in California... really!

I still like writing and I'm going to try my hand in freelance writing for magazines. Though i know, i'm bound to get tons of rejection letters... that won't stop me from writing. I'm wondering if I go international?? hmm?? hehe ^_^

MUCH LOVE to my bloggy friends... you girls are always there for me!!! ^_^

In a Rut, with a capital R

What a roller coaster ride of a week it was--still is--for me!! Too many things happened in such a short span of time!

First of all... like I've shared in my previous posts, I was able to get a job as a PR writer... well... that quite didn't work out as well as I thought it would! Because of my personal family schedule, I'm not able to attend events related to what I'm writing... so.. do the math and figure out what happened there!

Second, a friend got me in for a teaching job AGAIN. I'm so sick of teaching but that's the only thing left for me to do... as of now... SUCKS!

Third... a close guy friend of mine since grade school is trying to make his way back into my life and trying to take our friendship to bloom into something more.... I do like him.. and he does like me... the only problem is that he is currently in a relationship with another girl! Ay, caramba!! It's like a soap opera! I told him that it won't work out and that we should remain friends as for now. So far, we're doing ok. We hang out as friends and we talk about random things like friends do...

Aaagh!! My head is spinning in circles.. I have no idea what's happening to me! I have no idea what to do.... :( all i know is that it sucks to be me right now. Sometimes, I want to evaporate into thin air...